In case I die.  

Side note:

Suddenly, I don't want to sleep. Scared even. I want to do everything at once. It is as if time will continue to pass if I don't do something and it will be too late. I am such a contradiction. I want time to enjoy life then again I want time to bring a moment faster.

Improvement. That's what they say. I'm learning to be more patient and organized. My hope came true. I did say I needed that extra push so I can be independent and it's happening right now. I already have a routine. Other than going to work, chores seem like part of my day-to-day activities. Still, I wish I had that uplifting rush I usually feel back home when I pass through our doorway and say "I'm home". Then I usually go straight to look for my little brother and hear him laugh and tell me his day. The comfort zone that I complained about is now what I miss the most. Yes, I know. If something is there, you don't want it. When it's not, you just got to have it. Dang the conundrum of life.

I'm trying to achieve everything that I want. But I still feel lonely. I just hope it will be worth it because I believe in all my heart that it is. It will have to take just one step at a time and that each step will bring me closer to fulfillment, success, and finally, happiness.

No questions today.