Just like magic - it disappears.

I was never wrong to believe that happiness can be fleeting. I tried fooling myself in believing that I've found those moments. Those moments never stick. Happiness will simply lull you into a sense of elation and security. Then, it will suddenly bring you down. It's a sick trap. I should have known better but no...my heart will be seduced by it. I should learn to just appreciate moments of happiness but keep a watch out for the opposite. Unpreparedness is the root of the problem. I'm not saying it's wrong to be happy. It's not. Everyone should be happy but keep in mind that the opposite will also be standing near. Yin and yang - the two always go together.

Dependency is another problem. I've started to let go all my boudaries. I've just let go. I have to somehow realize that there is still the possiblity of being alone in the world. My loved ones won't always be there to place a net in case I fall. I have to stand on my own two feet. Learn the ways of self-preservation. Learn how to be one person. It's good that someone helps. Still, I should have known better. I've lost someone before - a big figure in my life. I thought I will be safe and secure but I thought wrong. I've dealt with losing - but I've never really dealt with being alone.

Forgive me for not learning anything.


Question of the day: Where have you been lately?