Depression is my best friend if I really want to write.

Moments. That's all I have right now. Just a few seconds or minutes of happiness and then it goes out of the window. Once again I use the word karma. I have been a bitch. I have been selfish. I have been in denial. Maybe the time has finally for the results to bite me on the ass. It's telling me "Zeri, now do you know what it feels?" I am fickle. I change my mind all the time. I say one thing then do another. Is it due to the excitement that is caused by the unpredictability of my actions? I know this gets me into trouble. I get tackless. Then I forget.

I miss myself sometimes. I am becoming this person who's engrossed in an element of her life that she forgets the bigger picture. I try. I do. I make mistakes and I gain experiences. Still, I feel like I make the same mistakes over and over again and that's all I have left - the experience of a mistake.

I don't relish growing up and facing responsiblities. It's ironic because I am the eldest and I have to do just that.

Take in the minuses with the pluses.

If only I could lessen my minuses....

Stranded on an island. If only.

Life has been sweet but with sour parts. When will it ever be just chocolatey sweet for me?

Buon Giorno! Friends. Life stops and becomes unreal with them. The laughs, the smiles, the stories, the jokes, the ease, the hugs...these what make the world go round. Poker anyone?

I've been reading my handwritten book of thoughts and memories. There's no doubt about it - I can be one weird person. *sigh

It has been long. No internet at the new house. Wishing for a miracle to happen (dsl) please. It has been a little good for me though. Without internet, more sleep. Is that the effect of internet on people?

You. Can be. A little. Less Complicated. If you wanted to.

It's me I know. The irrationality and the unpredictability. Can't help it. Don't even think I want to change. Might as well be back on that island again.