Have I been neglectful of late?

There were days that made me blissfully unaware. There were days that made my tempers flare. I didn't mean to make it rhyme. But how I wished that life would be just as that - a rhyme found in the lyrics of a 3 min song (if only life could only finish just as quickly).

As usual, on the topic of happiness. Maybe I should divert myself from the quest for such a thing. I keep on expounding on its process, its flaws and its existence. Haven't I figured it out yet? Why can't man ever be happy? Here comes my philosophy teacher suddenly appearing in my memory bank and telling me once again that "Man is essentially selfish", therefore can never be truly happy. *double sigh

Maybe that's just me - selfish.

My birthday came and went without as much as an elaborate piece of writing for my blog. I made such a fuss about it last year but this year I seem mellow enough (except for the drinking...hmm...) Still, I regretted it since it hurt someone. Again, I was being selfish.

I'm not worried since Christmas and New Year festivities didn't warrant an entry either. I guess I was too tired to do it or it didn't hold much love inside my heart. Things change. Am I selfish for wanting Christmas and New Year to still give me that certain twinge and warmth in my heart?

I've always wanted something more. There's nothing new with that. I guess it's my craving for excitement and passion. My imagination always seem to work overtime with the things I want to do. Still, I have to let reality sink in. Come forth reality!

These temporary and fleeting moments of happiness are what I live for. I yearn for those moments since the real thing might never happen (due to the philosophical reason I discussed earlier). So let's make most of life.

I just want to make sure that everyone knows once more. I am selfish.

I'm sorry.

Question for the day: Are you selfish too?