Flies straight to my heart

Emotions working overtime. Those that fall from the vehicle of sight are not what I expect.

I really don't know what to do.

For the week I felt a different kind of elation - one that seems to burst through the seams and I can't contain it. Life seems full circle.

But...

Misgivings. Enough...I might never be enough.

Change. I might never ever do.

Revolves around...

Others...I have forgotten about.

It has been thoughts of you - that make me feel that I have neglected others, others that I have to give a little of myself to.

This entry - all about me. Forgive me if yet again I talk about me. The title of this blog...me! I don't even want to be me anymore.

Status: a desire to be with you.

Tired. Stressed. Voiceless.

But still doing oh so well. Thriving.

I still miss being me. I don't even know what 'me' is anyway... Laughs, smiles and cheers - these are all the signs that I'm feeding off my temporary happiness.

Events and realizations after a 10-week respite from my everdearest mom. The longest 10 days I have ever experienced (so far)

Want to see me closer?

Pushing myself to the limits though. I've been tiring myself lately. I'm not ever sure why. Am I trying to rid of thoughts and musings? I tire myself so I don't have to think before I sleep.

You are incredibly patient...

There are things that you won't ever say you need but you just do. Then suddenly, things can change even if you don't want to.

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Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

* kelly clarkson

It was a song for a father...but it changes.