Un-anticipation

I took it upon myself to feel stressed. I created an unnecessary mess. Patience has never been my virtue and here I am - feeding my hate and anger without thinking it through. One of the favorite holidays of Hallmark just passed. Even though I've said that it's a bunch of waste to spend so much and feeding the capitalists, I still buy into those things.

Time. I have lots of it for the moment. It gives me oodles and oodles of moments to think (which usually leads me to trouble). Paranoia and temper tantrums just blow out of proportion. I never thought I will say this but I want to work already. I know I'll regret saying this.

Still,

The future seems more real than before and it scares me. The 'what ifs' are becoming more persisitent. They are prodding me to make sure I'm making the right decisions. The word 'right' is relative, right? Sheesh ;)

Question for the day: What is right?

Take me away

Running out of things to do at home. I'm starting to feel a little helpless. The want to do something more than just daily routine is haunting me.

There will probably come a time when you are stuck in a ditch that you just can't figure out where to go. I'm there. I can't move. I'm proabably scared. It's the time when growing up is impossible to deny. Reality is sinking in. Playtime is almost over.

Excitement and anxiety all mixed up inside of me. I hope that I'll be able to make a good decision before jumping into the fire.

In the meantime, I'm posting a bit of fun for my sake. I got it from my advertising yahoogroups. Here's what they say about me. ( Just not sure who they are...hmmm)

CAPRICORN

The passionate Lover. Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future.Irrestible, awesome kisser. Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. BY FAR the BEST in BED. Very sexy. Coolest. Loves to own Gemini's in sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Loves to be your first. So you'll never forget. Smart.

Question for the day: What is your sign? (I'll get the answer for you ;)